Insanity

A day of calm
and peace.
I am a tourist
in my own reality.
A day in hell
then a day
in heaven.
From this realization
I understand
my insanity.
I love my parental
source but it is
toxic to my
stability.
Unwilling to
understand,
accept me as I am,
relinquish control
and love without
conditions.
Am I asking
too much?