Growing up I was a very well adjusted, smart girl. My family was respected and middle class. We took vacations every other year, theme parks and skiing. I grew up at the beach and spent my summers sailing and swimming in the ocean or my grandmother's pool. I got very good grades with very little effort. I played sports, enjoyed art, played instruments, was in drama and very involved at school.
But none of that is really important. None of that tells you anything about me.
I never really had any friends. I could only handle one at a time. I never had sleep overs (at my house) or birthday parties. I never really belonged with any groups. I participated in extracurricular activities but that was all part of appearances. I always knew the expectations and I never questioned my role in my family.
Only in my adulthood have I realized the dysfunction. Only as an adult have I learned what was normal and what wasn't.
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